“I have often asked myself the reason for sadness
Carole King
In a world where tears are just a lullaby
If there’s any answer, maybe love can end the madness
Maybe not, oh, but we can only try”
Today the featured video is Carole King Beautiful. What is more beautiful than love? I am grateful or those I love being in my life. I am alive today because of them.
No matter what we are faced with, our attitude is really half the battle.
I think scars are like battle wounds – beautiful, in a way. They show what you’ve been through and how strong you are for coming out of it. Demi Lovato
If you have PTSD, you know all about scars. They are the battle wounds received from fighting for our lives. They are also the wounds we receive fighting to hold onto hope. Sometimes they are self-inflicted when we stop fighting and the wounds get deeper devouring more of our soul. That was what made me fight harder and I ended up with rope burns on my hands. But even they healed too.
Love ended my madness. I was in the hospital with an infection throughout my body. It was fighting to stay alive while I was praying to die. I just didn’t want to live anymore. My first husband tried to kill me. My second husband (and we’re still married) was being swallowed up by PTSD and I was so tired of…well, everything.
It had been a very hard life and that was all I saw. In and out of consciousness, I opened my eyes just as my husband walked into the room holding our 8 month old daughter in his arms. I looked at her and I knew I couldn’t leave her. I looked at him and knew I didn’t want to leave him alone. After their lives were worth fighting for, so was mine.
No matter what came afterwards, I had the attitude of gratitude that I survived. For me, it was a lifetime of it and by that hospital stay, it was my tenth alive day.
That is why I am putting up a video I did back in 2012 Alive Day. It is about living for love. I created it for members of the military and veterans, who were the focus of my work back then. When you watch it, think about the people in your life you love and maybe it will help you want to heal for them!
